To Bloom Like the Wild Flowers.

My legs now hurt pretty badly. well, they are sore. I’ve been out training for small mammal trapping, getting myself ready for the planned Sg,Ingei expedition. I am not sure whether I’d still be going. The thought of participating in such prestigious expedition is exciting but I now doubt my own capability and much of my family members though supportive are quite concerned as Sg.Ingei is well… quite frankly, w.i.l.d.

I have been anticipating for this expedition since a year ago – literally. And now, when the time has come for me to choose, I feel disappointed even in myself to back out – or at least, thusfar is my current position. I have signed up to be one of the volunteers. I loathe to break my lecturer’s “faith” in me for pursuing this voluntary work but. sigh. but, at this moment, i have competing feelings whether or not to go.

most of me has already decided against it.

oh, guide me.