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A week I will be in Bukit Patoi. The schedule looks rather tiring but exciting at the same time! Bird watching, small mammal study, stream study – tiring I tell you but very very interesting. I am not sure whether I am exactly prepared for this, you know… in terms of what exactly to bring and stuff like that. So far, I know my bag is already heavy. haha.

Today is Sunday. I have spent the morning rechecking and reticking the list of stuff I must bring for tomorrow. I spent the later morning eating out with  a few friends at Dynasty restaurant, followed by the movie Terminator Salvation. It was a good movie, not bad at all.

So okay, now it’s 3.45pm. And, I’m blogging. And it doesn’t feel like tomorrow is the day I’ll be heading out – away from civilisation! haha

.I don’t know what to say anymore.

I’ll be back in a week with updates! *grins*

BREATHE

Tutoring kills.

I am so tired.

I want to go makan makan and nyanyi nyanyi.

UGH. Ikut? akekeke.

sigh*

I have yet to understand why the world chooses wealth over health, and why money over love. I have yet to understand why the world nourishes materialistic feeling as an assurance of life’s value. Are we collectively choosing the former (wealth, money, materials, etc) subconsciously? Why do we choose this anyway?

We gave money so much credit and importance thus allowing it to control our lives. For now without it is impossible to live. Good food and shelter are determined by how much money one has. Then, there is that implication; a race of who owns the most and the best wins. So no doubt there is that rich and poor divide and the notion of the rich getting richer and the poor gets poorer. It is conspicuous you know- no one can hide part of a face pretending to not know that such exists in today’s world. Quite ubiquitous, no?

If you stand at the rich-end, you’re very truly lucky. If you’re in the middle, you’re safe. If you’re at the other end however, the world that revolves around you would seem harsh and unfair. And yet the rich would not necessarily help the poorer because they are afraid that one day their positions as the “rich” would be taken away and above all, they all like that sense of power and being in control. So all the talk of ending the rich and poor divide is to no avail. Plus, those in the meeting are usually the rich. No?

It is rather frustrating (ironic, too) to see how collectively, we have been talking about peace and tranquility yet we are the lot that impede ourselves from obtaining them. Absurd.

I wonder where would this lead us to.

We want more materials; we consume far too much. We create more dumping grounds, we are further killing our only home, we are destroying between and within us. Is this the right path?

One can make a difference. And let that difference be someone who has found a solution to all the crap we have made or let that difference be someone who can stop the proliferating mess we are currently producing. Let that difference be strong enough, right enough, and true enough. One We can make a difference.

…of things that were said but not done. There are so many that are being said but still not done. And yet, these things are crucial – in the sense that their importance must be taken note of seriously. Most have the courage to speak up and to speak out. However, most don’t have such power to stand up to change, for change – and it is the change for the better we are highlighting here.  We are a minority and yet the minorities can be a/the keystone element that determine good or bad consequence(s).

The ideas that run in the minds of people are so great and yet so many are  slaves to nourish the ideas of others, being pulled into doing other things. The conscience of what is right and wrong, what should and should not bes are always contested. Just because the majority opt for it, you who thinks differently are drawn to it, not because of it but despite it.

How can sex industry be right? How can child abuse be okay? How can poverty and hunger be ignored? Why are ‘gays and lesbians’ not accepted?

Yet, the world starts to accept it. Where will this lead us to?

Though really, when you think about it – the answers are simple. Sex industry aint right because it deals with one’s virtues and dignity (what could be worst than losing those, right?) and yet some reasoned by saying they have to or they would lose life instead.  Ah, child abuse is simply wrong. You’ll agree 110% on this. But what if the company that hires them is the only company that provides them shelter and food?… Poverty and hunger be ignored? I don’t really need to answer that, do I?

Oh sure, there are a lot of  ‘but’ s: BUT what if the world’s economy is distributed fairly?”, “BUT what if another better company comes along and saves the children from abuse?”, those are a few thoughts that could come to mind but I guess the hardest question is to ask yourself whether you can be part of making the world a better place by doing your bit. You seriously feel good exploiting using more than you require while others slowly die because of it?

We are a minority.

We seem small and insignificant.

Yet, we are given equal chances to make a difference.

Are you part of the team?

When the last paper was answered, when all was done and all there is left is to wait, I now find it very hard to start doing all the stuff I have planned to do – I simply don’t know where to start. This feeling of not being forced to do any work is awkwardly new and foreign. haha. But ah, I shall enjoy this long break while I can. When the next semester starts, it would be a lot more hectic than the two semesters that have gone by.

I left this blog a little too quiet throughout my revision week and the week of exams. I shall write a quick update, I shall write down some nice memories down before I forget them.

When revision week starts, the first two days of it, I was not doing any revision at all. I know that’s not good but I guess it’s sort of worth it since I spent those two days in Pulau Muara Besar. I camped there with some seniors as well as Dr.C, and the whole point was to take note of all the wildlife nature that inhabited that area. There was a proposal that the island would be built into a highlight tourist destination are – sigh, if only they were proposing such highlight of the project by taking the diversity of wildlife there into consideration. As a matter of fact, what we have found in Pulau Muara Besar was extraordinary. There are some animals that are ONLY found in that island (thus, nowhere else in the world – and yes, endemic would be a good word to use) – and if the project is carried out without us running through, or scanning through the area – the Chinese Egret would not be seen anymore! That’s not the only priceless creature we saw, starfishes, gastropods, sea otters were a few others we have seen too! Trust me, the list doesn’t end there.  Ah,I shall create have created a page on this with the pictures I took [here].

Anyway, revision week was too dull and thinking back now, I doubt revision week was fruitful *gulps* haha. Thankfully though, the exams went well. Not very very good but I survived, i think? haha.

For now, I shall list the stuff I want to do (or would be doing) these upcoming months:

one. Promote a camera brand for a friend.
two. BI1116-Bukit Patoi trip.
three. Make a nice healthy salad.
four. Singapore trip.
five. Teach and Tutor.
six. Make a few web layouts.
seven. a book! two books! The Venetian Betrayal is one.

Ah, I have been trying to grow Dutch Iris (as some of you might know) – and I did say that one of the lot has been growing quite well. But so sad to tell now that this very one suddenly died – out of too high exposure of heat? perhaps? I’m not sure but I know for sure that it did start to wither when it’s now the transition period of Northeast Monsoon to the Southwest Monsoon *pouts* and I also think that the soil is a little too acidic. But oh well, I shall put this little experiment on hold and shall put a little more effort on the local flowers.

Spoke at 10.42am.

So, one paper left on Saturday. Just two hours of that paper and it’s FREEDOM! from textbooks, from reports, from presentations, from allthatcrap. I feel a little relax now knowing that all the difficult papers are answered-painfully. haha. I’m not sure how well I did for any of the papers, quite frankly, I doubt I did well for my major paper. Sigh* So far, I know I have done enough mistakes to not get an A. *pouts*

We shall see how things go.