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Finally got my hands on a couple of awesome web designing software. A big big thanks Ee Tyng! although software are not genuine copies.. hahahaha -_-!

However, sadly..I can’t have it set up in my pc. My RAM memory is so low! I didn’t quite realize that until half an hour ago.. *pouts* It needs at least 1GB and I have 278MB!!!! =\ I feel so outdated suddenly. IT MUST BE UPGRADED!

Went to surf a few websites and check on some specifications and prices. In the end, I got myself hooked on buying a laptop instead. =\ haihz.

What do you reckon? A laptop or a desktop? x.x

plant blue coloured petal flowers. Can you name a few you know?

A couple of good shots taken by Montana Outdoors on wild flowers… according to her, you’ve got to be at the right place at the right time to see the wild flowers bloom~ if not, you wouldn’t even know they exist!

Oh, I simply love them flowers~*

So we talked about pursuing a job we like to do, we talked about how money just flows in if we love the job we do… but what exactly is that job? Do you know? Do you really know what you love doing?

That, my friends, are some much troublesome questions I have been asking myself. Tsk~

I love being a conservationist, I love nature, and so I have decided to pursue Biological Science… because I know, I am sure that I love it…[*gulpz* <.< >.> <.< I'm THAT sure! haha. -.- celaka betul. ]

However, in this shitty world we live in, we need to earn enough recognition and cash to get us moving, living, and perhaps happy too. Hence hence, we are forced to pursue a course that can guarantee us a spot in the working field, ought to pursue a course that the CURRENT community is demand of. You see, I have realized that people in general can put you in a shitty situation although they do not possess such intention. If we have too much engineers already out there, you who pursues engineering would need to face some challenge just to get a seat in a company. And if you happen to be one of the so-so, average scoring student, you’d be taken aback and definitely shattered when the course you thought you love apparently could not provide you with the income you need. Somehow, slowly… the course you once loved is no longer so – you are forced to take up some job you don’t like doing. I am sure you have come across many people telling you that there is no such thing as “pursuing a job you love”. Trust me, I know. *points at mom* She told and taught me so. Sighs* So not only do you need to just love doing what you do, you need to be good at it and be able to hold on to it. Not an easy process. Alright, so some of you might say that if you love what you do, you’re most likely to be good at it. Well, sorry to bust your bubble but we’re talking about people who acquire the same passion as you do but may possess better skills. Uh-oh. -.- siap. No wonder there are so many kiasu people around..

So…what now? are you reconsidering the course you are about to pursue? Hmms…

I’ll share with you what I think the solution is.

…You combine Job A and Job B together. =)

I previously spoke about my own thoughts about Job A and Job B, and what I actually believe~ but so much for standing my views about it, I need to be a realist. Things apparently don’t go like that in the real world… perhaps not to people like me who is not an A star student all the way, who loves doing too many things~

You work for a job that gives you the cash then use that cash to pursue your dreams.

Do not work for some old braggart. Be your own boss. You are the boss.

Work with and for the community. Make it a better place. Produce better people.

Job A: A job that you enjoy doing, a job that you love but gives you not much cash (so say $2500 per month).

Job B: A job you very much not like doing, where satisfaction comes only when you get your pay (so around $5000 per month).

Which job would you pursue?

My answer: I’d go for Job A. Job A may give a little less when compared but so what? I cannot allow myself to wake up every morning and face the day doing things I don’t like to do. (…like today) and plus, if you pursue Job B – it is possible that your salary would just stay stagnant for a i don’t know how long, but if you pursue Job A, there is a higher chance that your income will increase…? no?  - since you like the job, you know? Instictively you get better at doing whatever it is and hence productivity increases…Also, it won’t be too hard on your dear heart – you get to smile more (than if you pursued Job B), you don’t get to stress too much (hahaha.. pffttt..everywhere stress di mana pun stress..but seriously, the intensity won’t be as much as if you pursued Job B.) I actually believe that if you do what you like, the money will just come to you. You don’t work for the money, do not allow it to dictate your happiness, your life…

So people! whoever told you that you need to study a course for the sake of getting a high pay- tell them to kiss the dog!! (o.O?)! [p.s.: haha..nopes, I have nothing against dogs]

Which job would you choose?

I shall stop reaching out to you. I feel foolish each time I do.

I shall stop thinking about you. You are eating my brain cells.

I shall stop caring so much. I have neglected mine to suit yours.

I realized I don’t like the current work I am hired to do. So alright, the smiles of them kids and the friendly environment are some plus plus, but still… ugh. 

I am getting tired of paperwork (tsk…who doesn’t?)

I am quite tired of doing the same thing over and over again.  I realized that I cannot work for something that has a same almost repetitive like schedule every single day. It sometimes is just unbearable. If a person is sick, give him the leave form. If it’s a requisition order form, pass it to her. If it’s a new student, you do this, you do that. -_- haiyer. And it’s almost the same thing every single day, every single month, every single year. It has no particular goal…no particular direction, only you get better and better at it – at giving out forms, at sorting out papers. -.- tsk~ I guess I am comparing it to BGIC. Working for BGIC was a blast because you know what you are working for and you work towards a particular result. And what is better – once it is over, it’s OVER. Puts pen down; “next project please”.

I guess that is also why I am not tired of studying or going to school – you are working towards something, be it a test, an exam or to just upgrade a level. What is cool about it too is not just the fact that you are learning something new each day but you meet new friends old friends be with friends!!!

Dang, I miss going to school now.

Bottom line: I want to go back to school. And I will shit not work for something that has stupid repetitive schedule especially not secretary work although I know it may suit me. Be an event manager would be cool. =)

June 15th is drawing closer. And, I am not yet ready.