I am annoyed.
You know how you are trying so hard to be:
1. A good child: obeying your parents, be true to God, picking up bits of litter on the ground, helping old ahma cross the road, etc…and
2. An A+ child: scoring good in everything - living up to your parents’ expectations. Bla bla…
and whilst you are working at it, you receive loads of praises and thumbs up for your good will and hard work. You feel good and so you work harder. And you get better. And better. The ladder you climb, it gets higher and higher; and you… you aim to climb as high as it goes. But…
Somewhere along the path, you slipped and fall. And instead of falling onto a comfy ground- where you expect there would be since you worked hard for it - you fall onto hard rocks, with sharp ends. It seems like the higher you climb, the deeper the cut will be when you fall…you climb one meter, you can only fall within that one meter; you climb higher, the depth of you falling is also high.
And them praises. So they say it and you heard it. But often than not, there is a “but” in the middle of the sentence. Just like that…
praise + pause + but + negative comments = that person feels good because she/he is jealous not happy with herself/himself.
It’s stupid. But sadly most people do that. And what piss me off more is how they dare comment “it’s how the humans live” and shake it off like it’s nothing…Just because you did this one mistake - suddenly they forgot all the goods you have done. All the credits - kaput! Just because you want to be good and is good at what you do, they want you to turn into this inhuman character that has no feelings while they poke you with criticism. Faloi…
It’s like it’s better to be bad. You won’t go worst than that. You are already in the negative zone - what else can they say? But when you are good - they don’t necessarily talk better about you. It’s insanely stupid. Humans should just die. =) Habis cerita.